Does She Know?

IMG_6426.JPGWhen I heard of Linda’s passing, my immediate thought was “Did she know God?” Linda was a vibrant, loving woman in her early 50’s who used to be incredibly intense on the tennis court. A few years ago, she had a massive stroke, fortunately for her, while visiting a friend in the hospital. Because of where she was, her life was saved. The stroke left her terribly handicapped, but she was able to see her only child graduate from high school with honors.

On the outside, Linda may have come across as one tough cookie with her platinum colored hair, full makeup, black clothing and silver scrotum balls which hung from the back of her SUV. But only after a few minutes of talking to her, you knew what a softy she was. She loved people, animals and the earth. In fact she professed to being a Wiccan.

Her rehabilitation from the stroke left her home bound. I knew that I should go to see her, but I had heard that she didn’t really want visitors. So I stayed away. I sent a few cards, but never had the courage to go knock on the door. I was afraid.

I wanted to tell her about Jesus. I wanted her to know how much God loved her. I wanted her to know that the trees and animals that she loved so much were not spirits or gods themselves, but our one and only Holy God’s creations for us.

But I never got the chance. Did she know that Christ died for her sins? Did she know that God created her perfectly? Did she know that He loved her fully and wholly?

IMG_6427.JPGHere is my girl baptizing one of two friends of her’s that she introduced to Christ. I had the pleasure of meeting the two young women. One told me about the moment she knew she had to have whatever it is that Mary Claire has. The three of them talked for hours. Mary Claire brought them to church, discipled them and told them the greatest news ever…God sent his son to die for our sins. Anyone who believes this will not die, but will have eternal life. Those two sweet girls do believe. Praise God!

I have felt sick, thinking about my cowardliness with Linda. Why don’t I have more confidence in my faith to share it openly? Why did I let the opportunity slip away? Why can’t I be more like my daughter and bravely speak the truth?

Tears fell today when I heard the news. A week before Linda passing away, a neighbor had asked Linda’s husband about Linda’s spiritual situation. He explained that at the beginning of their marriage, he and Linda went to church, taught bible study and worshipped The Lord. Then Linda became disenchanted with the church when their pastor was caught in an adulterous relationship. Linda confused the messenger with the Message.
But, in this same week her husband and good friend brought Linda back to Christ! She gave her life back to God! Ya’ll! She was Saved!! I know that she is in heaven with Jesus now, fully healed and alive.

I don’t want to waste another opportunity.

Do you know Christ? Do you know why He came? Do you know that there is only one way to heaven? Do you want the joy and peace that surpasses all understanding? Do you know that there is nothing that you can do to work yourself into heaven? It has been done for you! All you have to do is believe.

I want you to know Christ too. If you want to learn more or just want to talk to someone about it, contact me.

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Secret to Fight Depression: The Truth

IMG_6418.JPGOh Brother! I found myself on that crazy carny ride that takes me spiraling to depression again. If you remember I seem to get on this ride often. In fact, I wrote about it here. The latest time has left me feeling completely exhausted and sick to my stomach. Did you ever see the movie The Sandlot? The boys are at the carnival buying tickets for crazy ride, when Bertram Weeks pulls out the chaw. Oh boy! The guys are so excited. They each take a huge hunk and start chewing Big Chief Chewing Tobacco while getting on the ride. You know what happens next….

That’s kind of how I feel when I start doubting who I am. But guess what? I’ve figured out the secret. It’s so simple! I just ask myself

What is the Truth?

Example: the committee members are asked to host several tables for the annual fundraiser. Last year I had seven tables! This year? I can barely fill one. (Then it begins…You’re such a loser. Why can’t you fill more tables? This event depends on donations and if you don’t have people there how can money be donated?)
TRUTH: This fundraiser is NOT dependent on ME. In fact, we have more tables filled with guests than we had last year. My gift to the event is decorating the tables. This takes time, money and effort. It will be a successful event because of everyone’s efforts.

Example: I happen to look at my tennis record online and see that I have only won two matches in the past year and I have to go to the courts to play a match. (Watch out, here it comes….You’re such a loser. You’re going to get bumped down a level. You’ll never win tonight. No one will want to play with you. You’ll get dropped from the teams you are playing on now.)
TRUTH:I am a decent player sometimes. (I even surprise myself!) Someone has to be the winner and someone has to be in 2nd. The fact is is that my friends are real friends who love me and won’t kick me to the curb for my match record. Most importantly, I am 48 and NOT getting paid to swing a racket. I don’t get upset when my partner has a bad moment, so shouldn’t I have as much forgiveness and grace with myself? I think so.

Example: My 16 year old son and his friends have made some bad choices recently. (Here we go…You’re such a loser! You’re such a failure as a mother! If you had only blah blah blah…)
TRUTH:I’m actually a pretty terrific mom. (Whoa. Did I just give myself a compliment?) I don’t know if you’ve raised any boys or not, but can I just say it ain’t for wimps. Just ask any adult male about being 15-19 years old. Have you ever seen the show World’s Dumbest? Well, all of the stupidest stunts, accidents and decisions are done by 15-25 year old guys. My son and his friends’ decision to do something stupid is NOT my fault. Superman and my job is to set up boundaries. When our children cross over the clearly defined line, we, as parents, are to hand out the consequences. Am I disappointed about his choices? Yes. Do I love him with all my heart and will I do whatever takes to get him back making responsible decisions? Absolutely! My job as a mother will never end. It will just change.

I’ve recently discovered the National Geographic Channel show The Incredible Dr. Polon Netflix. I can watch show after show. I love it! In one episode, Dr. Pol and his son, Charles, are asked to help a woman with a crazy young stallion. As Dr. Pol castrates the teenage male horse, Dr. Pol says

All balls, no brain.
No balls, all brain.

Hmmm….is there any way to….

Just kidding…

well, sorta.

Anyway. My prayer for you and me is that we will see ourselves the way God sees us. He does not expect is to be perfect. In fact, He expects us to make mistakes and to be imperfect. I pray that we’ll turn to Him when things get messy.
TRUTH:God wants us to depend on Him.

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