When Your Heart Feels Raw

The baby boy is going into surgery for the 79th time.

The man is stuffing handfuls of mayonnaise and sugar packets into his pockets.

Teenagers are trying to navigate through the waters of growing up, just like generations and generations before them.

Those in financial turmoil can not get off the wheel of bad decisions.

The owner of the dilapidated house drives a brand new, shiny, red BMW.

Momma has her sixth child taken away.

With all of the services, education, free meals, opportunities, and churches available, families still live is desperate poverty.

As the crack house and pot shop are open in the neighborhood, children ride their bikes to and fro.

Friends and family move away.

Once in love, now getting a divorce.

Ones we love get cancer. Ones we love get sick. Ones we love pass away.

Millions of children are aborted, left on doorsteps of orphanages, or tossed across the border.

So many things today that leave my heart ripped open, raw with pain. Every where I turn, I ask the question: Why? It’s so hard to keep my tears back.

When you look at the back of a tapestry, it looks messy with random strings everywhere. This is what I see. I don’t understand why so many things happen that cause so much pain. I want to fix it. I even try to trim the yarn or weave it in a different direction, but it never looks quite right.

That’s when God shows me the other side of the tapestry, the art He is creating. This life He has control over.

And it is beautiful!

The front side of my tapestry is radiant with comforting hugs from a son and kisses from the other…

Encouraging words spoken from a loving daughter who lives far away…

Security my husband has given this family through hard, honest work…

Music that let’s me sing my praises…

Laughter shared between good friends…

Words from my bible that tell me over and over again that God loves me.
20140702-112217-40937946.jpgI may not understand most of the things that I come across each day, but I do know that I can find peace and rest in Jesus. As much as I would like to think that I have all this control, I really have none on my own. I have to continually look to the true source: God.

If you are having one of those days where everywhere you turn looks dark, count your blessings, turn on some music, sing, hug someone, turn your tapestry over and see the beauty that God is creating today.

Thanks for dropping by,

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Being Thankful in Airline Mishap

20140104-155143.jpgYou know I’ve been in Jackson Hole, Wyoming for 10 days now, because I’ve written about it here and here. We thought we were going to be sleeping in our warm snugly beds Friday night, but it was not to be. We arrived at the Idaho Falls Airport at 7am. Boarded the plane at 8:05. Sitting in our seats for a few minutes, the pilot announced that Salt Lake City International had closed its runways due to a snow storm. No plane was allowed to take off or land. So, the captain suggested we unload and wait where we would be more comfortable in the lounge.

An hour or so later, we were invited back on the airplane. We hand our tickets to the stewardess. We find our seats again and sit. We begin our taxi. The captain comes on the overhead again, to say that the plane is having some sort of mechanical problem, but not to worry, because a mechanic is on his way. We sit. We wait. The problem cannot be fixed, so we must unload, claim our baggage and reschedule another flight at the ticket counter.

EVERYONE on the plane had to reschedule. Ugh.

Because there were six of us and we all wanted to stick together, we would have to wait until the following day to go home. I had a choice to make…1. Get upset or 2. Look for blessings in this turn of events.

I chose to see the good.

20140105-151917.jpgMy family was together. A woman was very upset, because she was suppose to meet her grand-daughters in another airport. She was so afraid the girls would be there alone. My most prized possessions were right there in the Idaho Falls airport.

20140105-152949.jpgwe were safe. Watching the news of planes and cars having deadly encounters with the ice and snow, I am so thankful, we were safe on the ground. Also, I would rather wait for a plane that didn’t have mechanical issues, than take that risk.

20140105-153336.jpgWe didn’t go hungry. Heck, we had Kathryn’s Snack Shack to keep us fueled.

20140105-153544.jpgWe had a warm bed to sleep in that night. The airline put us up in a Holiday Inn Express, which was quite nice. It was located across the street from a mall, which filled in some time for us. We went to see a movie, shopped and ate some dinner.

20140105-154040.jpgWe didn’t have to be anywhere else.. A father and son standing in line in front of us at the Delta desk, were trying to get to Florida in order to go on a cruise. They were calm, but I’m sure they worried whether or not they were going to make it. I hope they did. We only had a great desire to be home, but that could wait another day. We were able to sleep in, have a good breakfast and lots of coffee. I sat in front of this fire with a cup of coffee and read my bible. I was feeling quite comfortable.

20140105-155346.jpgThe weather cleared and we were on a working plane.

20140105-155748.jpgHome always looks so good after I’ve been away.